forever till forever meets no end

Saturday, March 17, 2007 @8:32 PM

yesterday for chelsea's sake i had to be high so i wouldn't feel even more sad. i hope she's feeling better now.

actually yesterday i wasn't high. i was very low. eck. i was damn irritated and am still damn irritated at a certain someone whom i suddenly start to find damn fake. FAKE. totally fake. todays training sucked. i suddenly think i should just keep away all my gym stuff and not bother about training and everything. i suck. so whats the point man i'm not going to win this year since there are such pro people like limjie and wenjun around. then there's always a certain someone and natasha. so who cares man i might as well just stop. everything lao shi says doesn't go into my head. i can't train properly cause i'm thinking of other stuff. i think you will know. i hope you do.

i love melinda and cheyl my 2 best friends and wonderful RS group members :D thanks for always being there :) and being such great friends <3 haha i know i can always go to either one of them if i ever need help or someone to talk to. melinda the psycologist and cheryl the high and crazy person :) LOVE YOU 2 ALOT :D especially melinda at the moment. i knew i could trust her though i admit i was kinda freaking out abit.

damnit i totally feel like giving up now. sucks.
where are you when i need your help?